Really, you don’t. I don’t either, and normally I know that. But every now and then I let my doubts creep back in and I start to feel like I’m not enough, somehow. I see people who have what I lack, excelling where I struggle, people for whom things seem to come so easily, so naturally.
I think many of us have these moments, and in those moments you realise you will never be as good as this person. You can’t help but feel discouraged and you may even wonder why you bother at all. You incorrectly assume that just because you’re not the best, that what you have to offer is insignificant, and perhaps that you should hide it away for fear of being judged against these amazing people and being found wanting.
I do not have the best singing voice in the world, and for many years I hid it. But rather than list my complaints and issues with it, I’m going to list the reasons why I sing instead. If you’re going through a similar thing, perhaps make your own list to remind yourself of why you do what you do 😊
- It allows me to express whatever I’m feeling. Whether I’m happy, sad, angry, lonely, whatever – I can vent those feelings through singing.
- It has also helped me to overcome crippling shyness and anxiety. I went from being terrified of even speaking to people to performing in front of hundreds of people!
- On a related note, imperfect as I may be, other people seem to like my voice. The general consensus is that they are glad they listened to it! It makes me really happy when someone else enjoys it, too!
- Singing has brought me into contact with some of the most amazing people, and shown me how kind, helpful and supportive people can be!
- I enjoy taking on challenges in many areas. Vocally I do this by attempting songs that I don’t think I can do. I often surprise myself and realise that some of my barriers and limits may be self imposed.
- My voice now is pretty unrecognisable from what it was when I started. I find that pretty exciting and want to see if it will keep changing and evolving over the years.
- I want to see what I can do with it, see how far I can go. I’ve done pretty well in several competitions, had a private audition with Disney, won a free trip to Korea, and most recently I’ve written an EP with an amazing producer. I’d say that’s going pretty well really.
- I like being able to write my own songs and put my thoughts and experiences into what I’m doing. I love covering songs and I always have, but there’s something really exciting about singing a song I’ve made, that means something to me. I’m particularly fortunate to be writing with someone who is very talented but also very open minded and happy to work with my ideas!
Sometimes I think I don’t deserve success, because I’m not good enough, because I’m not talented enough, because I’m not impressive enough. But in the end, that’s not for me to decide. And rather than thinking about whether or not I’m the best (I’m not) or whether I ever will be (I won’t), I suppose I ought to just focus on loving what I do and always trying to do it better. For the things that I just categorically cannot do with my skill set, I can either accept it and move on… or try to find another way around. I’m an artist, after all, a creative. It’s all about using your imagination, right? 🙂